I Cry when i sleep


I didn’t know you can cry in ya’ sleep

Till I woke up with tears in my eyes

What the fuck is going on?

Real niggas don’t cry

Take this shit like a man…

Head up … Chest out…!

I’m a man!

But still, I woke with tears in my eyes

I thought that after all the bullshit

I’ve been through

I could no longer cry…

‘Muh’ died, ‘Ta’ died, I blew my trial

‘Pop Pop’ died, ‘Dez’ died, my appeal got denied

Then ‘K’ died, Mike died, ‘Stephen’ died

Damn Cuz!

I thought that I was tough

Especially after all that stuff

I held my head up, chest out

I ain’t pout

But, Somehow,

I woke up with tears in my eyes

What could I have been crying about…?

It don’t make sense…

All the bullshit, I dealt with

Held it in, showed no emotion

Now, my time getting longer…

This cell getting smaller…

Damn! This bit getting harder…

I guess that’s why when

I woke up with tears in my eyes

What was I dreaming about…?

Probably freedom

I just got denied again

And every time I close my eyes

I see the sky

Or me having kids and a wife

Some shit that may never happen in this life

No wonder why

When I woke up I had tears in my eyes

Maybe it was a nightmare…?

I keep having this recurring image

Of me spending life in this prison

One hundred thirty years was the sentence

Is that why?

When I woke up I had tears in my eyes

I don’t know…

I’m going through so much shit …

I don’t know

I’m trying to sleep through the pain

Because in here, there is nothing

That could mask the pain

I’m innocent!!!

But, the verdict, returned guilty!

Most likely, that’s the reason why

When I sleep I cry …

-By  Kory ” Hussain” McClary

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